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Waking up in the middle of the night and thinking about the unknown future, I think about my mother, my life, and myself… I wonder what will happen to me in the future, I wonder what will it be? How is my mother who is sleeping in her room? So quiet… The night is so quiet.What will I become? I want to be a helpful social worker but my english seems not enough to be one. How can I make myself more meaningful?

Me, the me I always value the most feel so useless in the crowded US society. I always hope, but I feel like Im so lonely… No one besides me except my mother who always supports me. I have no sibling in the US. My only sister is still in VN, I am worried for the unknown future I have to endure later, and feel so useless in the society where I dont have any power.

Im so sad for my English; language barrier is the main reason keeping me away from the persons I wanted to be friends with, and also it is the main hinder which delays me to become the person I wanted to become, making me feel so useless and hopeless every time I think about it… I feel so lost…